The Controllable

Control.

My life often goes spiraling out of control, the hits keep coming and I feel as if it's never going to end. For the past few months I have let my mental health take a huuuuuuuuge toll on me. With school being very stressful this semester, and not having the healthiest relationships in my life. It seems that the quote, "When it rains, it pours" holds true.

However, the quote "It might be storming now, but it can't rain forever" also holds true.

Things have been miraculously getting better. I'm feeling cleansed of all of the toxic people in my life.

I feel like I have control.

This week, I started tracking my macros & cutting my calories because I'm finally ready to start a stricter diet. Today while getting ready to go to the gym, I looked in the mirror & saw that the definition lines in my stomach that I haven't seen in months were back. This was amazing, and inspired me.

They inspired me because there is so much in our lives that we CAN'T control. We can't control how others treat us no matter how hard we may try. We can't control the weather. We can't control anything... besides ourselves.

Fitness is such an amazing thing. It is so amazing because we can control what our bodies do. We can control what we eat. We can control how often we work out. We can control our dedication to our training. We can control whether we are working towards our goals... or not. We have full control over this. While looking in the mirror, I just felt like I took full control over myself this week. I made a change, and I can see the change. In the mirror. Right now.

I feel as if today the clouds finally cleared up, and I can see that bright blue sky again. The storm is over, for now. And I'm ready to keep fighting through this beautiful journey with the help of my support system.

- strength grows in the moments when you think you can't go on but you keep going anyway -

<3
Hayley